I have only started my diet last Friday and did pretty good until this evening. I had a trigger and when I get upset about something I have to deal with that I can't handle I turn to food. This time it was my grandson, who bless his heart and I love him better than anything on this earth, was really acting up. He is 4 and mildly autistic and today I just didn't have the patience and little kids pick up on this and they act out. Oh I should say that my daughter and grandson moved back in with me about 2 months ago.
Anyway having said all that, after I had a perfectly good supper, I ate a Slimfast bar, then a bag of popcorn, and then was going to eat some vanilla wafers, but I went and ate another Slimfast bar. After this I feel so guilty and wish I knew how to deal with my emotions in some other way besides eating. It's always been like this and skinny ppl don't understand that trying to distract myself with other things just don't cut it.
What I just ate was a small drop in the bucket of what I would eat at night if I wasn't on a diet so if you compare the two, the 220 + 220 + 250 cals isn't much (650 cals) However I did ride my bike out od guilt and drank a glass of water. I will take the battle back up tomorrow.
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